HOLY SHIT

I decided to write this blog post because I'm super high.

I don't even know what I want to talk about.

I currently am listening to this song Caroline- amine. It is good.

I feel strange lately. How is is I'm a senior in college, with all this shit going on. Life goes fast.

I think I feel thankful lately, for the way a lot of things are. Meeting the best people, the good experiences. Its all so beautiful.

It feels weird to know soon I will be doing a job that is my career or moving away for good from my home city

sometimes I want to pause life and go to those innocent days running around with my siblings fucking shit up, or when I use be the bad kid in school with Rae.. at age 9. so cool. Or running around outside as a kid on a summer day.

I think a lot lately of all my favorite memories. They have just been coming too me. Just little random thoughts of people or days I loved.

laughing hard with my friends, seeing a new born baby, a lunch with my dad, a good hand rolled cig from Ginnie.

Those are the memories we long for. The ones that take you back so such a different place, a moment so calm like a slow moment in a movie. Something that makes you feel and alive, where your content. No rushing thoughts just loving everything about that time.

This isn't a sad post. More of a HOLY SHIT. This is it. I'm living life post. Its happening to me and everyone around me in this world.

I love that I'm a human and I can worry about " not spending my time better!" I should read more!""
Do more yoga". It just makes me laugh sometimes how human we all are.

Think about the last time you got black out drunk with your friends : I'm sure its a crazy night where you probably piss yourself laughing the morning after.  What a weird thing to feel and do.

I'm thinking about how much I love to squeeze my grumpy cat boots, and how happy I am in that moment.

Or remembering the first time you met someone, who changed your life, while you are good friends with them now. Remembering what they were wearing, or where you were.

I'm thinking about how happy it makes me to listen to a song that really makes me feel good, or read a book that has me hooked.

I'm thinking about how much I love Euan and all my study abroad friends, and how weird it is to actually love people that much.

or how weird it feels to be really excited about seeing someone you haven't seen in a while

or how good grapes  taste to someone, then how they can taste bad to someone else.



It's cool to be able to have this life I have.