I decided to write this blog post because I'm super high.
I don't even know what I want to talk about.
I currently am listening to this song Caroline- amine. It is good.
I feel strange lately. How is is I'm a senior in college, with all this shit going on. Life goes fast.
I think I feel thankful lately, for the way a lot of things are. Meeting the best people, the good experiences. Its all so beautiful.
It feels weird to know soon I will be doing a job that is my career or moving away for good from my home city
sometimes I want to pause life and go to those innocent days running around with my siblings fucking shit up, or when I use be the bad kid in school with Rae.. at age 9. so cool. Or running around outside as a kid on a summer day.
I think a lot lately of all my favorite memories. They have just been coming too me. Just little random thoughts of people or days I loved.
laughing hard with my friends, seeing a new born baby, a lunch with my dad, a good hand rolled cig from Ginnie.
Those are the memories we long for. The ones that take you back so such a different place, a moment so calm like a slow moment in a movie. Something that makes you feel and alive, where your content. No rushing thoughts just loving everything about that time.
This isn't a sad post. More of a HOLY SHIT. This is it. I'm living life post. Its happening to me and everyone around me in this world.
I love that I'm a human and I can worry about " not spending my time better!" I should read more!""
Do more yoga". It just makes me laugh sometimes how human we all are.
Think about the last time you got black out drunk with your friends : I'm sure its a crazy night where you probably piss yourself laughing the morning after. What a weird thing to feel and do.
I'm thinking about how much I love to squeeze my grumpy cat boots, and how happy I am in that moment.
Or remembering the first time you met someone, who changed your life, while you are good friends with them now. Remembering what they were wearing, or where you were.
I'm thinking about how happy it makes me to listen to a song that really makes me feel good, or read a book that has me hooked.
I'm thinking about how much I love Euan and all my study abroad friends, and how weird it is to actually love people that much.
or how weird it feels to be really excited about seeing someone you haven't seen in a while
or how good grapes taste to someone, then how they can taste bad to someone else.
It's cool to be able to have this life I have.
Monday, January 30, 2017
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
My hardest goodbye
This is something that I and the whole group was regretting for ages. It was such a build up.
All I know is that I have amazing fucking friends. They all brought me to the station for my flight home, and almost all of them that went to the station paid to come to the airport to say bye to me.
I think sitting at that airplane knowing i had minutes left with this whole group was what really broke me.
I hugged them one by one knowing that things will never be like this again. I have never seen so many tears and so much love. It broke me, I could feel it.
My hardest goodbye was Euan. I don't know how it is possible for someone like me and Euan to be best friends but it happened. We have such an interesting relationship. Hugging him goodbye left me in uncontrollable tears.
Leaving all these people was the hardest thing that I have done in ages.
I cried the while flight, the whole car ride home, and cried myself to sleep.
I guess I am writing this blog not for sympathy but because I want to look back and be able to remember this deep sadness but deep love I had for these people after just 6 short months.
I had this sadness because I had so much love and happiness with these people and this time abroad that I was this sad. At least I had something that good, that was so hard to leave.
Even today it's my first full day back and all I can do is message and face time them all. Its so hard.
Studying abroad is everything everyone says it is and so much more. It is a life changing experience; and to be honest I think I got extra lucky. This group was so strong, so mental, and so fun. Not everyone gets that.
I'll also miss Den haag, I learned to love that city. Cycling or tramming around. Coffee shops, cute bars, going to the beach, and I cant believe it I'll even miss millers.
Even though my accommodation, the student hotel, was up the butt expensive I loved it there. I am going to miss going out for joints and seeing everyone. Or always having someone to smoke a cig with. I'm going to miss being 4 rooms down from my best friend, and having him cook me dinner.
I'll miss the Ismet the cornershop owner. He was so good to my friends and I'll miss going in there drunk and high and dancing and singing with him. He's a good hardworking man.
The hardest part for me is who knows when the whole group will be together again, if ever. I guess that is what was so beautiful and special about it. It was temporary.
I loved living everyday with these people, I like the lifestyle, and friendships we had. How am I suppose to let that go?
I'm trying not to be sad because I am going to do everything in my power to keep in contact and see these people again. This is not the end, its the beginning.
All I know is that I have amazing fucking friends. They all brought me to the station for my flight home, and almost all of them that went to the station paid to come to the airport to say bye to me.
I think sitting at that airplane knowing i had minutes left with this whole group was what really broke me.
I hugged them one by one knowing that things will never be like this again. I have never seen so many tears and so much love. It broke me, I could feel it.
My hardest goodbye was Euan. I don't know how it is possible for someone like me and Euan to be best friends but it happened. We have such an interesting relationship. Hugging him goodbye left me in uncontrollable tears.
Leaving all these people was the hardest thing that I have done in ages.
I cried the while flight, the whole car ride home, and cried myself to sleep.
I guess I am writing this blog not for sympathy but because I want to look back and be able to remember this deep sadness but deep love I had for these people after just 6 short months.
I had this sadness because I had so much love and happiness with these people and this time abroad that I was this sad. At least I had something that good, that was so hard to leave.
Even today it's my first full day back and all I can do is message and face time them all. Its so hard.
Studying abroad is everything everyone says it is and so much more. It is a life changing experience; and to be honest I think I got extra lucky. This group was so strong, so mental, and so fun. Not everyone gets that.
I'll also miss Den haag, I learned to love that city. Cycling or tramming around. Coffee shops, cute bars, going to the beach, and I cant believe it I'll even miss millers.
Even though my accommodation, the student hotel, was up the butt expensive I loved it there. I am going to miss going out for joints and seeing everyone. Or always having someone to smoke a cig with. I'm going to miss being 4 rooms down from my best friend, and having him cook me dinner.
I'll miss the Ismet the cornershop owner. He was so good to my friends and I'll miss going in there drunk and high and dancing and singing with him. He's a good hardworking man.
The hardest part for me is who knows when the whole group will be together again, if ever. I guess that is what was so beautiful and special about it. It was temporary.
I loved living everyday with these people, I like the lifestyle, and friendships we had. How am I suppose to let that go?
I'm trying not to be sad because I am going to do everything in my power to keep in contact and see these people again. This is not the end, its the beginning.
stick & pokes and beer bongs
We had another one of those nights that our group does best.
We started pressuring people to do beer bongs, we started giving everyone stick and pokes, and i mean everyone. i now have 3 stick and pokes.
I was so drunk that while getting a tattoo on my leg, i did a beer bong on the chair. I am the definition of grunge.
Clair, Ted, and I made a song, well they made a song and I helped them perform it while we were drunk. It is entitled Vicky C.
We went out to Billy's super drunk, and fucked things up as per usual.
i love this group. Its always good energy and happiness.
It was just a night of lots of love, lots of laughter, and I am so thankful for every single one of them.
We started pressuring people to do beer bongs, we started giving everyone stick and pokes, and i mean everyone. i now have 3 stick and pokes.
I was so drunk that while getting a tattoo on my leg, i did a beer bong on the chair. I am the definition of grunge.
Clair, Ted, and I made a song, well they made a song and I helped them perform it while we were drunk. It is entitled Vicky C.
We went out to Billy's super drunk, and fucked things up as per usual.
i love this group. Its always good energy and happiness.
It was just a night of lots of love, lots of laughter, and I am so thankful for every single one of them.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
New Year's Eve in Amsterdam
New Years Eve Amsterdam 2017
We took the train and had a few beers, the lady sitting next to use looked at us and said, umm can you be quiet, we don't like it. We died laughing.
We got there pretty early in the evening so we walked around, saw the city ( it was Rae and Whitney's first time there)
We smoked a joint, and got some dinner
Then we went from bar to bars drinking. We ended up meeting and hanging out with this couple from Liverpool, they bought us loads of drinks so that was nice.
We were all vibing on vyvanse so we had so much to talk about.
Whitney got probably the drunkest I have ever seen her.
She was literally throwing up into the new year at this bar that had tin foil everywhere
I lost my phone, and Rae pouted when we had to go home early to bring Whitney home.
It was crazy in Amsterdam, the men where weird, and touchie.
We saw a lot of weird shit, but it was such a funny night and real cool to bring in the New year with so many of my close friends.
2016 I can say was honestly one of the best years that I have had so far, I learned so much and did so much. I am really happy where I am in life right now.
England for Christmas
Whitney and Rae came to Europe to see me!
Since we were here for Christmas alone, my friend Alex arranged for us to stay in her parents friends guest house, and we had Christmas with her family. It was such a lovely week! We really got along with Alex and her family and all the people in the village! we were staying in Doncaster which is a small village about 45 minutes from Leeds!
The big days we had there-
Night out in dirty Doncaster:
We were warned by all the adults that Doncaster is a crazy place to go out, especially on a Friday. They were like cover your drinks, and stay in groups. They were definitely being dramatic. We had so much fun! We started the night by pregaming with Alex and her sister and her parents and there friends! They gave us so many shots. These adults can really drink! The peoples house we are staying at is Jamie and Claire!
We love Jamie, he is such a good guy, and he really wants to go to Wisconsin!
So anyways that night we were blackout drunk before we even got to Doncaster.
The clubs were so fun, so danced, drank loads and it was a funny night.
Leeds for the day:
We went to Leeds for the day with Alex, and it is a really cute city, we looked at all the sites, had spoons ( best pub around) and tons of cider!
Christmas day:
This was definitely my most memorable Christmas so far, we really bonded with this family so it felt like we were right at home, we had presents in the morning, food all day, and such a wonderful Christmas dinner.
The best part was after we all napped from being so full we started playing American drinking games with Alex's parents.
We ended up getting so wasted with them that we played never have I ever with them, we took shots, and chugged way to much alcohol. By the time we went home that night I was shouting " Get out of my moms car" in my shite American accent. It was a hilarious night.
I don't know what it is but i have such a nice bond with Alex's step dad, John. He was just so cool, I really enjoy him!
Friends Christmas party:
The next day after Christmas, Alex had to go to her dads for Christmas. We ended up going to brad and Kate's house ( Alex's parents friends) and we were blasting classic 90's songs, Clair the shot queen ( literally she is the queen, I have never seen anyone give out shots like she does) was so on it with shots that every one was shitty drunk, and even all the adults were. I was hanging out with all the old men ( I cant help it I love Older dads and they love me).
The adults were writing bad shit on Brad and Kate's car and blaming the children, The dads were twerking, I kissed Claire, had a 30 min conversation with the dads about there sex life, and danced a whole lot. It was a hilarious night!
Manchester:
I was so excited to go to Manchester! It is a city I have always wanted to go to! It is a very hipster place, it reminded me of Portland, but better. I fit right in.
we went to go see Affleck's, which is a an alternative department store selling club and fetish fashion, new designer clothing, surfwear, accessories, henna tattoos, and piercings. It is located in the Northern Quarter, which is like the student area.
It was a super cool place, it felt like you were walking into a different era!
Next we went into some vintage shops, ate a nice dinner.
We walked around and looked at all the buildings and sites.
We ended the day at a nice little cozy bar!
It was a great day, I also really enjoyed being able to see the North of England because I have only ever been to London and oxford! I loved it. I don't know what it is about England but it has my heart
Over all this was such a lovely time in England. I loved having my two best friends there, and they got to meet Alex, and her family was so fun. I will truly miss them all, it was hard even saying bye to Jamie, hes sucha great guy, but he promised he will come to Wisconsin!
Since we were here for Christmas alone, my friend Alex arranged for us to stay in her parents friends guest house, and we had Christmas with her family. It was such a lovely week! We really got along with Alex and her family and all the people in the village! we were staying in Doncaster which is a small village about 45 minutes from Leeds!
The big days we had there-
Night out in dirty Doncaster:
We were warned by all the adults that Doncaster is a crazy place to go out, especially on a Friday. They were like cover your drinks, and stay in groups. They were definitely being dramatic. We had so much fun! We started the night by pregaming with Alex and her sister and her parents and there friends! They gave us so many shots. These adults can really drink! The peoples house we are staying at is Jamie and Claire!
We love Jamie, he is such a good guy, and he really wants to go to Wisconsin!
So anyways that night we were blackout drunk before we even got to Doncaster.
The clubs were so fun, so danced, drank loads and it was a funny night.
Leeds for the day:
We went to Leeds for the day with Alex, and it is a really cute city, we looked at all the sites, had spoons ( best pub around) and tons of cider!
This was definitely my most memorable Christmas so far, we really bonded with this family so it felt like we were right at home, we had presents in the morning, food all day, and such a wonderful Christmas dinner.
The best part was after we all napped from being so full we started playing American drinking games with Alex's parents.
I don't know what it is but i have such a nice bond with Alex's step dad, John. He was just so cool, I really enjoy him!
Friends Christmas party:
Manchester:
I was so excited to go to Manchester! It is a city I have always wanted to go to! It is a very hipster place, it reminded me of Portland, but better. I fit right in.
It was a super cool place, it felt like you were walking into a different era!
Next we went into some vintage shops, ate a nice dinner.
We walked around and looked at all the buildings and sites.
We ended the day at a nice little cozy bar!
It was a great day, I also really enjoyed being able to see the North of England because I have only ever been to London and oxford! I loved it. I don't know what it is about England but it has my heart
Over all this was such a lovely time in England. I loved having my two best friends there, and they got to meet Alex, and her family was so fun. I will truly miss them all, it was hard even saying bye to Jamie, hes sucha great guy, but he promised he will come to Wisconsin!
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