Drunken Farmer's Market// The Summer Feels

I have always seeked out and enjoyed Farmer's Market. My mom and I loved doing it when we had time together, it was our thing.

The Farmers Market to me is the summer feels, beer, veggie, socializling event. what more could you ask for?

We went with some older, good friends of ours. People we have  good connections with. 

We drank beer, talked, and had random friends from each part of the group join into a bigger group of everyone just vibing and enjoying the lovely day we have together.

It was all the weirdos of Green Bay thats forsure, but in a good way.

I have been loving life lately, and this day was just a reminder to how sweet life can be.

Everyone knows the farmers market is just an excuse to get drunk with your friends in the sun 🌞🍻

Margaritaville

We were definitely taken away to Margaritaville after meeting for just a quick lunch.

This was such an unexpectedly beautiful day. We all know I love Rae, and then plus Rachel my spiritual soul mate, and a new friend Carli.

We ate good food, had (MANY) good drinks, talked about life, sex, and living. Nothing can get better than that.

Before we knew it we had spent 3 hours in this restaurant drinking.

We came home laid in the sun and just enjoyed what a fantastic, needed day this was.

Beyonce

" Ok ladies now lets get in formation" 

Whitney, Sam, Rea, and I took a mini road-trip to Chicago to go see beyonce. It was such a great day, nothing but smiles, laughter, singing, and enjoying the day. 

Beyonce slayed, she put on a hell of a show. It was such a artsy, passionate show. You can tell she has such raw talent and really cares about her work and her performance.

" Middle fingers up,  put them hands high  Wave it in his face, tell him boy bye."

" cause I slay" 

"Sorry, (I aint sorry)"

unplanned appreciation

Rae and I have noticed that the best days we have are the unplanned ones, the ones where we end up doing such random, misellaneous shit with our friends. These are the best days because you have no expectations, no worries, and just a go with the flow attitude.

The past month or so there have been a lot of days like this. The good days that will your heart and soul with happiness.

Today after work two coworkers and friends of mine decided to go treat ourselves ( TREAT YO SELF) to some sea-salt pedicures. It was much needed after how much we have all been working lately.

Then Rae, heather, and I went to take a walk through the woods and take some artsy, and funny pictures. Nude pictures have been Rae and I's thing lately. We are those young adults your parents warn you to stay away from ;)

After these pictures and time enjoying the beautiful weather- we got Heathers boyfriend and went for dinner and drinks at the lovely, Vintage Cantina.

It was another beautiful, unplanned day to add to the books.

Too old too soon too smart too late

I had one of those days yesterday that I know I'm going to look back on when I am older and feel so nostalgic. I'm posting it in here because I want to be able to remember how I felt in this moment. So full of life, laughter, and a heavy shining light radiating from my soul.

First off I actually know what it feels like to be in love. It's my first time being in love with someone. That someone would be my roommate/best friend, Raeanna. 

The adventures and memories we have together I hold near and dear to my heart.

My morning was filled with good food, coffee, and conversation with a good friend Ilya. He offers me growth, new ideas, a beautiful friendship, and laughter. 

After that I got to spend time at a coffee shop drinking a delicious mocha with a cupcake to go along. I found new music, read, and got to write. It was "me" time and I always value that time. 

Then Rae and I decided to dress up in our funkiest clothes, do our hair, and to basically have our appearance match how we always feel inside.

This was the result. Cute, huh?

Before leaving the house we thought it would be a great idea to get high and go take some fun pictures. We were driving around laughing, talking about how much we don't want kids, or to lose our youth.

  

Then our high selves thought: "LETS GO GET PIERCINGS TOGETHER" and we did just that. 

I got my septum and Rae got her nipple pierced. We clearly make the best decisions. 

  

I think getting these piercings on a day where we are feeling so alive was such a good idea- just another reason to always remember this day. 

Then we headed to our friend Lesley's house who Rae and I are obsessed with. She is darling, beautiful, and such a neat person. We decided to have dinner and martinis so we headed to the grocery store.

While roaming the isle in my funky attire looking for olives for our dirty martinis I had to older ladies walk past me. She goes "I LOVE YOUR SHOES" then looks up and sees my dread buns and septum and tells me she loves my funky style and live spirit. This added to my already lovely day. Showing generational gaps don't always need to be a thing. These ladies loved Rae and I. Usually older people seem to be judging me and this made my day so much better. They told me they know from personally experience that your youth goes fast and to really embrace these days with full force. Her quote for me was" too old too soon too smart too late".

Then we get home and we drank WAY to many dirty martinis and Lesley made us this magical Thai, vegetarian curry. It was such a treat. We all, including her boyfriend ryan, sat around- showed eachother cool music, music videos, talked about sex, life, feminism, traveling, and all the best topics.

 Eventually it was just the girls talking and drinking way to many margaritas in margaritaville. We got on the topic of our bodies and how we should love them. We even made a drunken promise to do a nude photoshoot together. A DAY FOR THE BOOKS (or in my case: the blog) 

Enjoying the good days

I am having one of those days where everything is what it is and I am content with it. I am happy. Enjoying good conversation with wonderful people. A day where I am enjoying what it is to be a human. I have a beam of light shine though me today. Every thing in this day is making me happy. A song I've heard a thousand times is bringing me feelings of energy and excitement. A stranger in the car next time glances at me with a smile. I am having one of those days where I am a live and beaming. My coffee taste like the best cup I have ever had. I want to be interacting and loving. I am thankful for my beautiful days as a human, and how weird life is. I am thankful for the relationships that I have. To be able to interact with so many different characters in life, to be able to feel, see, and hear, to be able to walk, smell the fresh air, to be able to think and have good thoughts. I hope that everyone who has these days appreciate them. I know that I surely am. I think that when it comes to life, humans and relationships that it is messy- but that is what makes life worth it. The unknown, the trust and faith you have to have in it all.

Why are we here? Who really knows.  When will you die? It could be tomorrow or in 50 years. The point is to know that nothing is permanent. Its scary, but beautiful. You are not perfect, nor is anyone. Be okay with making mistakes, be okay with taking risk, and be okay with being uncomfortable. This is where growth comes from. It is so easy to allow yourself to be sad and to feel negative and alone. Your mind can be a dangerous thing. But when you think of the bigger picture it makes certain things seem so small.

Not everyone you meet in life is going to love you, agree with you, and share in all of your opinions.We are all different, that is what makes relalthionships so healthy and important. Surround yourself with those who allow and accept you to grow, be around people who challenge and push you. Do not limit yourself in any way. You are better than that. Someone doesn't like you? Good that just means you are alive and radiating and truly being you.

You may not always be doing what you want to be doing. Going to school, studying, and working- it can be draining. It is probably not how you wish to spend your time. Change your view on it. Look at it like you are LUCKY enough to have a  job, you are lucky enough to be able to get an education and further yourself. Every moment is important whether you view it as good or bad. That is life. Learn to find the simple joys in your day- be present with it all. I am not perfect. I have really bad days- where I feel like I am stuck in a lull. Its important to have these days though. They make the good so much better.

I love that we have the opportunity to meet people in this- to be able to connect and communicate. To know how to feels to love someone, how it feels to miss someone. These are incredible things. We are emotional beings and that is fine. Think of yourself as fortunate for having a pulse and being who you are. Things may not make sense at times but its all going to end up to be what it will be- so there is not point in trying to control everything. You cannot do it, its not possible. So instead absorb yourself in the unknown, in the scary feelings and thoughts. Just live.

I hope there are days where you fall in love with being alive

This is just a post of some of the pictures I've been taking lately. I could classify myself as an artsy, alternative person. I don't have many artistic talents, I mean I embroider and use to do ceramics and sculptures but nothing incredible. I think photography might be my art. I have a good eye for the grungy style photos. I definitely want to invest in a good camera and do photography on the side.

These are some of the shots I've taken recently : 

Kaitlyn and I frolicking in the snow- 

My best friend heather in I spending a beautiful Saturday afternoon in a small town- 

" The one where I love my coffee" 

" The one where Judy scared me " 

" The one where you don't look back" 

" The one where you don't think too much" 

" The one where I didn't fake laugh" 

" The one with the red box" 

" The one where I realize I AM beautiful" 

" The one where life is simple"

" The one where my dreads do a little dance" 

" The one where you bust- a -move" 

" The one where I see you slipping through the cracks" 

" The one where the universe is kind to me" 

" The one where I wish I was still a care free child " 

" The one with the blurry picture" 

Pictures of Rae and I in Milwaukee! We went to see the nick offerman show (Rob Swanson from my favorite tv show: parks and recreation) HE WAS HILARIOUS!

Clair is my heart and soul and with her I am who I always want to be : 

Downtown Green Bay with Abby: