Period Mixtape

Rae this blog post is dedicated to you. I was watching no strings attached and he made her a period mixtape and I died. 

I thought you would appreicate it as much as I would. 

Next time we are back home on our period together, eating chocolat, and having a fight over who is a beach or a city person we can listen to this.

I Bleed - Pixies

Sunday Bloody Sunday - U2

Bleed Like Me - Garbage

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Bloodflowers - The Cure

Blood on the Dance Floor - Michael Jackson

Bloodletting - Concrete Blonde

Bloodflow - Smog

Only Women Bleed - Alice Cooper

It's Alright, Ma (I'm Only Bleeding) - Bob Dylan

We Bleed - Lykke Li

Fresh Blood - eels

Bad Blood - Neil Sedaka

You're Bleeding - NOFX

Please Bleed - Ben Harper

Blood River - Abbe May

Don't Let Me Bleed - Glenn Hughes

Anything by The Cramps

This will forever be our period mixtape. You better believe when I get home I am putting this on a CD like it is the early 2000's

The Student Hotel Parties

Neon Party 

Last night was one of the classic student hotel parties. There isn't much to say about it because it was great like they all are. I mainly just want to post the great pictures.

We all drank too much, as per usual. 

I think the student hotel parties are the best because EVERYONE goes and EVERYONE turns up. It's mental. 

We played beer pong, danced, and just had a whole bunch of fun.

Phillip threw up in the elevator with people in it, and on the floor of my hall. 

Nin was so drunk at the end of the night she was watching Netflix in her bathroom while she continued to throw up.

I love nights like these. 

I managed to get lost , at my own student hotel. Classic.  

I'm an adult

I'm an adult now... and I'm okay with it. 

( when you're hungover and get the essentials) 

I always have had a bit of a fear of aging, and I had the notion that adulthood meant a boring, mundane lifestyle. 

But let me tell you something beautiful. Life is defined by your definitions. With this mind set I have been embracing becoming a young adult. I'm 21, and I do adulting my own way. 

I may be blackout drunk at night, adventuring with drugs, partying, making dumb decisions but you can bet in the morning I wake up ( yes it is after 1pm) and I clean my room, answer emails, do homework. It takes me all day, and I complain and smoke about 1314 cigs, but non the less, I do it. 

I'm an adult.

Now I say when I come home, what I do, who I hang out with. Being this age, a 21 year old, free in Europe I am starting to see the beauty and freedom of being adult. 

It has its hard times but if I want eat a whole bag of Doritos, and drink 6 cans of coke, I can. 

The hard part of adult hoods like making the " right" decision instead of the fun one or easy one. Having to make sacrifices, part from friends, not have enough time with family, and deal with school. 

It is hard, and sad sometimes. But it is all apart of it, the transition happens to everyone. Might as well go with it, see the positives. 

I'm an adult.

Now, I'm going to go " study" aka watch Netflix for hours while my book it open on my bed, and then wonder why I have nothing done tomorrow. 

Small Moments

Today was just an ordinary week day for me here. I had class and my Europe at home meeting. I hung out with my friends at there apartment and went home early.

I was half asleep in bed watching Netflix when you rang me and said to come down and bated me with a joint.

It was just him and I and we got mega stoned but didn't have a lighter and I had to keep asking people awkwardly for them because it was windy and kept going out.

We went up to the kitchen and were so high and it was just one of those moments.

We were being so weird and the banter was so good.

I was singing dramatically into the fridge the fast car song and it was horrible

Euan and I were yelling at a empty lasagna pan making fun of the people we knew cooked it..it was one of those moments where you go on doing it forever and then both stop and look at each other like what the fuck are we doing.

I stole so many items from his communal kitchen. Hot chocolate, drinks out of someones apple juice jug, cheese. i thought I was hilarious. Euan was always worried they would walk in.

We sat there for ages just laughing so hard I actually peed my pants a little. No joke.

No one gets me laughing like Euan.

I know this isn't that significant of a night but I was just really stopping and thinking I live for moments like these.

Just genuine happiness and appreciation for a moment and a friendship.


Another small moment today was Ginnie, Nicolette, Max, Izzac, Nin, and I were all in Max's room smoking and nicolette stopped and said, " Everyone in this room are the ones in the friend group that never say no and drink and smoke too much." We laughed so hard because we knew it was true we could never say no to eachother.

It made my heart happy.

Jamie T

Euan introduced me too Jamie T when I first got here. It was the first time we really hung out. Euan is a music snob just like me so we show each other some great stuff.

I have a soft spot for Jamie T, not only because I associate him with Euan and traveling abroad but his music is fantastic. He is close to my Shakey Graves obsession.

So, we got tickets to go see Jamie T in Amsterdam together.

We got into the city ( both hungover) and we walked around a bit. Then we stumbled upon this authentic Thai restaurant that had killer food. We had the best talk in this place. We talked for more than a hour about our families, and parents, and the hard and the good times.

This is what I love about Euan, is that most of the time we have fun and banter, but we also always have these great conversations where we can both just feel how deep, and nice they are to share together.

Then we stumbled upon a few great bars ( Amsterdam is super touristy so it can be hard to find nice, local places).

The last bar we went to before the concert was one of the best parts of the night. We were drinking high alochol percentage Belgium beer then somehow managed to take 5 shots of tequila each in like 45 minutes.

There was a cat we kept harassing at the bar, the bartender was having an amazing time making fun of us and after giving us our last shot said we will only give it to us if we leave.  He loved us deep down.

Euan and I were so trashed by the time we got to the concert.

This was one of the best concerts that I have ever been too.

Euan and I both agreed that we usually like to be towards the back where we can dance and have space, we were so drunk I was elbowing our way to the front, We danced our asses off, sang, and enjoyed Jamie. Jamie T even held my hand in the crowd ( Euan was pissed because he has been to like 6 of Jamie's concerts and that has ever happened to him).

After the concert we went to try and get the night train but we were so drunk and it was closed. We didn't know what to do because we have no where to stay.

On our walk to find somewhere to stay I go into a fight with a taxi driver where we kept flipping each other off, I yelled at stranger for looking at Euan weird, and got told at a 4 star hotel that if we couldn't afford this to go to a 3 or 2 stat hotel. It was great.

We ended up having to spend 100 euro at a a hotel. We were not even made because it was a funny story. We ate a mega breakfast to get our money worth, stole lots of jam, and didn't check out till the last minute.

It was a good trip/

Damn it feels good to be a gangster

Halloween 2016 is one I will never, ever forget. 

I never use to get into Halloween, which is weird for me because I love parties and dressing up and being weird. I think its because Halloween was never big in my family.

I have changed my ways after this year and I can not wait for more dressing up!

This year Ginnie, Alex, Nin, Nicolette, and I all dressed up as gangster clowns. We looked so good, and we knew it. Alex was a major babe and did all of our make up and all the work.

While getting ready in my room we all were dressed up as gangster smoking mega weed in the bathroom,

 Euan was an Ameican Dad and it was great. Teds quote to Euan " you look like you know how to raise a family" 

Then the rest of the crew came over in the costumes for the Halloween student hotel party. We were amped because when ever the student hotel does a party is so sick. 

There were so many people dressed up at the student hotel pre-party! Everyone was in the spirit! Which made it so much more fun.

We were dancing, whipping each other with Ted's whip, giving each other hickeys ( who knows why), and it was a dream.

Before I knew it I was a bottle and half into wine, some beers, and joints. This was just the pre-party. 

All of a sudden i got offered another party favor and that's when it went wild. Nin, Ginnie, Nicolette and I all participated in this. 

We all ended up tripping out in the best way possible, but it was also terrifying, but in the morning we were laughing our asses off. 

( Ted as so drunk he let Nin shave his chest and she ended up cutting his nipple) 

I wish I could explain all that happened, but it is so hard to recapture that night.

Euan and Ginnie and Ted ended up having to take care of us all. 

Nin and I were in the bathroom with Euan for an hour feeling his face and fair, and ever few minutes Nin and I would freak out. It was pure gold. 

Surprisingly we made it to the main event, The Purge, that was a 20 minute walk away.

I don't even remember what all the stages looked like.

I do remember a stranger laughing at mine and Euan's dance floor moves \ we thought we were killing it. 

We lost the whole group, ended up taking a taxi home. 

I laid in bed with Euan, Alex, and Lowis for a hour at 6 am just laughing and cuddling. 

You know it was one of the best nights you have ever had when the whole group is still talking about the night 3 days later.

( when you wonder if you're still looking good after the party so you take a quick selfie to check) 

Ginnie, me , and Nin all took a edible last night and we had a deep talk about next year. When we think of this Halloween that we all had together. When we think of it we all be in a different place, and we will be sad but so nostalgic. I love the people I have here. Its so unbelievable to me how lucky I am.